Sometimes it doesn’t feel it but sometimes it feels like the fog hasn’t lifted and I know that I’ve still got a way to go. Sometimes I feel like I’m on top of the world but I know the wounds haven’t completely healed and I need to find a way to get on with my life. I need to forgive myself my hurting people who’ve done me no wrong and I need to forgive those who’ve hurt me, whether intentionally or not. I didn’t go to my cousin’s wedding dinner even though I was back by then. Yes, part of it was due to the very unfortunate misunderstanding between us but part if it was because I’m still not strong enough to face my relatives. AndI know that’s really silly because it’s not them judging me, it’s me judging myself.
I need to pick up the pieces, get back to doing the things I love to do, no more excuses. I need to know who I am and be true to myself. I need to start believing in myself again.
